Sunday, November 1, 2015

Sweetest Seconds

Well, where do I begin...I didn't share a room reveal because I think I might have been pouting.  I haven't given you at least a monthly up to date because I have been trying to wrap my head around my teaching career.  There is no doubt that I LOVE teaching and the indescribable thrill I get when kids are excited to learn but things have changed so much.  Yes, I prayed and prayed about my move and I really feel like I'm exactly where God wants me to be BUT it's been hard.

14 years of teaching and I feel like a new teacher again.....lost, scared, and constantly second guessing myself.  In my new school no one knows me, there are rules for everything that I do, and at least 10 meetings per every rule to train me in the rules.  I left a place where everyone stopped and hugged to a very different environment.  I really wallowed in self-pity the first few weeks but I have since realized that was not going to work for me.  I need to pick myself up, smile and make a whatever I'm doing.

I think it's so interesting that I changed the name of my blog to "sweetest seconds in a day".  I liked that name because it could refer to my sweet second graders or a small moment in time during my day.  At first all my "sweetest seconds" were only at home with my favorite people but I needed to transfer this mindset to school.   Honestly, that is what I have really clung to these past few months while at school.  I tell myself "just pick a sweet moment and hang-on to it".  

Some days it's one of my little guys saying: "Mrs. Kirby, can I ask you something?" Me: "Yes, of course." Little guy: "I love you."  Haha! Yes, we discuss a question and a statement every time but it still makes me chuckle.  I hang on to this.

Some days it's a kiddo literally working up a sweat trying to read, I seriously have NEVER seen someone work so hard and be so determined to figure out words and sounds.  I hang on to this.

Other days it's listening to the kids repeatedly say "thank you" for bringing them a treat.  I hang on to this.

Sometimes it's the kids' BIG hugs when you put a secret little note in their folder telling their parents just how amazing I think their kiddo is.  Their appreciation for being recognized and celebrated is some of the sweetest seconds in my day and I hang on to them.

I made a quiet deal with myself after the first few weeks of school.  I made myself promise to pick at least one positive thing each day to focus on and hang on to.  The positive "sweetest seconds" are sometimes the fact that it didn't rain and I didn't have to transport 21 second graders from a portable with 5 umbrellas to a building across a parking lot.  

I have a lot to be thankful for and I am blessed in so many ways that I feel guilty for sharing this post.  I think we all need reminders to focus on the what is important and how our mindset can effect everything that we do.  "Conquer mind, Conquer all" - My favorite airman lives this motto and there is so much truth in that little statement.

I'm looking forward to sharing some of my "sweetest seconds" in my day.

1 comment:

  1. We are so lucky to have you at our school! I hope I get he chance to know you even better!